Updates

Hey peeps =) Emily didi somthing to my laptop yesterday, and hey presto!!! I can go online from my hostel again =) (for the time being) so to show how much I appreciate this opportunity, i'm willing to put my Institusi Islam book aside and update my blog... Aren't you all touched =) hehe

My laptop itself is very lag though... Regardless, I still love my laptop. It has been with me for almost 2 years it feels so 'me' =) Little did I know, I had been abusing it (shame on me). I was complaiining to Keat How how lag my laptop was while ding assignment in the cafeteria last week and he asked to take a look at my locac disk's properties. disc C, 18.86G with less than 1G free space left... He roared with laughter, leaving me blinking and waiting patiently for explaination. How am I suppose to know I shouldn't use up all the space in disk before moving to disk E. Yea, yea.. call me a computer retard, I admit... Well, if there's any of you who still have no idea, though this I doubt, You shouln't use more than half the memory in local disk C because that's where you keep your Windows and processor and everything else, and your laptop/computer will lag with such burden. Wow... I sound knowlegable(don't gag =))

Went out with Amy on Wednesday.. Watched Mutant Teenage Ninja Turtle.. It's VERY nice.. =) Well, I love it.. I don't really know how to explain, but it's nice overall.. The turtles just look soo man.. hehe.. Don't give me a weird look, I bet you'll like tem too, if you watch it... Especially Leo, he's so cute and the two swords he fight with... they're just so 'yeng' =) Anyone likes to eat McD's Happy meal? Can help me get the Ninja Turtlr toys?? I'm impossible.. hehe.. But I seriously want those toys... hehe

Oops.. got to go again.. Amy's hungry... Might continue after lunch. I've got so much to say =)

It's study week. Everyday, I sleep at 4am and wake up at 12pm, then loiter around my room doing nothing in particular. read Institusi Islam?? Test is still two weeks away I'm just going to forget in a few days time. Circuit Theory?? Nah... Too lazy to look at figures, take out my calculators and punch numbers. Update my blog?? I'm just too comfortable in my room to drag myself away from the hostel, to the campus to go online. It's just too troublesome when the wireless in myb hostel block almost every website and the only bus to campus is 8.30 in the morning. I have to meet my sister today, however, so here I am signing in and realised it have been a month since I last update!!! Gosh, I can see spiderwebs and green moss all over. Make sure you don't slip, guys... Will try to clean the moss..... Okay, that was cold -_-"

Caryn sent me a parcel. I claimed it from the office yesterday. It has a beautiful card, a 6 pages long letter and a cd with 400++ of her photos... It really give my mood a lift =) Days spent confined in the four walls had numbed my brain. Oopss... my sis is here. Got to go... Anyway, thanks, chabo, for your letter... Very happy to receive it. Love ya *HuGZzz*

Totally Sick

I'm sick of it. Sick of being left out. Sick of  being assumed I don't want to hang out anymore. Sick of being expected to do well without their help,now that I have a 'personel teacher'. Sick of acting having a blissful life. Sick of playing dumb to sarcasm. Sick of making one sided effort to pull friendship back in place. Sick of surprised faces when I turn up outside their doors. sick of being asked "where is he?" when I'm seen alone. Sick of people thinking we're supposed to be glued!! I'm sick of guys who used to be friendly edging away. Sick of helpful seniors backing off, and considerate friends excluding me from activities.

I'm sick of him telling me to put more effort into my friendship. Sick of hearing him telling me to ask them out, to spend more time with them, to have meals with them, to ask them help with my studies. Sick of advices tried, and end up in situation "refer to the paragraph above".

I'm sick of not having a time alone. sick of people mortified to find me having dinner in my own room. Sick of losing the world and those I thought dear to me.

I'm tired. if there are those who don't mind giving up my friendship, and forsaking all the times we've been through, bot trusting me enough to keep them still - close to my heart, then perhaps there's no need for me to hold on either.

I didn't believe in lose and gain. I was so sure to keep everyone precious in my life. But if this is how it's suppose to be, I'm tired fighting a lost battle. Maybe, it's time to surrender.

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Confusion

It’s not the least fun,

Being lifted up and let fall,

Grasp in midair in an abrupt snatch,

Released again in a sudden slip.

Is there nothing to hold me firm?

Is there nothing to cushion my fall?

Aren’t there balms to cushion my fall?

Given another choice, I might,

I might, I might just not fly....

I tried to adapt, to changes

in time, friends, and life.

Hardest of all are changes

slowly formed in you.

Where had the magical moments gone?

The sweet little things,

Thoughtful little acts,

Eagerness and excitements that shows that

I mean the world to you.

Were they only illusions?

Tricks played on my ears;

Lovely sayings that made me blush.

Expressions arranged to fool my heart;

You displayed that swell my bubble.

Are you getting lazy?

Or is it just me?

There’s no denying,

that something is missing.

However, still

it might just be me.